Today

Everyday is a new adventure for me. Waiting to see what happens next, will some one else SCREW me over?... will you make me feel hurt again? These are questions that linger in my mind. I know I said I FORGAVE you for what you did, but its hard for me to FORGET. Everytime i remember I feel STUPID for staying, but I know that im DEAD without you. No matter what I LOSE. Im used to this, you know I am, you know my past. But for some reason this time it hurts more then anything that has ever happened to me... I NEVER have felt for anyone the way I felt for you, I vowed to you to stay TRUE- But yet I haven't been stabed in the back with the knife we bought together and now I walk with a bloody wound in my back, waiting for it to heal.

At. Dulce Locura♥

Are We Human or Are We Dancer?

I did my best to notice When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender I was brought but I was kind
And sometimes I get nervous When I see an open door
Close your eyes, clear your heart ... Cut the cord

Pay my respects to grace and virtue Send my condolences to good
Hear my regards to soul and romance They always did the best they could
And so long to devotion It taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye, wish me well ...You've gotta let me go

Will your system be alright When you dream of home tonight
There is no message we're receiving Let me know, is your heart still beating?

You've gotta let me know

Are we human or are we dancer? My sign is vital, my hands are cold And I'm on my knees looking for the answer ... Are we human or are we dancer?

At. Dulce Locura ♥

Feelings

Sometimes i think too much, i think of the future and whats going to happen.. you told me you wont do anything, you even promised me... but then there was this one thing you said that made me wonder. It made me think of things. Things that happened and could happen. I know i worry too much but i have my reasons. you know what they are so i dont have to write them out. I just hope that you are true, cuz i swear by everything that i love including you.. that if something happens tomorrow the next day the next year or in like 20 i will leave you forever.. you erase my name from your mouth and my love from your memory.. i will take my child my dog and everything i have with me. im not one of those women that will forgive you for every thing. i forgave you once for what you did and you know what it is, you screwed up and made me cry a couple of times.. so dont do it again specially since u promised me.. cuz i love you but im not going to get hurt again. i know that i have hurt you before too.. but never like that. you know i wouldnt and i hope you wont either. if you love me, like you say you do, lets make it true.

At.

Dulce Locura ♥

Dios

Si Dios tuviera un refrigerador, tendría tu foto pegada en él.

Si El tuviera una cartera, tu foto estaría dentro de ella.

El te manda flores cada primavera.

El te manda un amanecer cada mañana.

Cada vez que tú quieres hablar, El te escucha.

El puede vivir en cualquier parte del universo, pero El escogió Tu corazón.

Dios no te prometió días sin dolor, risa sin tristeza, sol sin lluvia, pero El si prometió fuerzas para cada día, consuelo para las lágrimas, y luz para el camino.

At.
Dulce Locura♥

El Amor se cocina a fuego lento

Voy a decir algo q con seguridad va a molestar a muchos, pero q cuando se los explique les va a molestar mas, y es q a veces cuidamos mas lo seguro q tenemos, q lo inseguro. Me explico: yo siempre digo, no cuides tanto a tu familia, cuida a tu pareja y la gente se sorprende.
Pero como q no voy a cuidar mucho a mi familia? Es mi familia! Y no, tu familia, q es tu familia, esta segura, es tu familia, nunca se pierde. Ustedes han oido decir a alguien: alli va mi ex hijo, alli va mi ex padre? No, verdad? Pero han oido mucho, alli va mi ex pareja.

Entre los padres, los hijos, los hermanos, la familia, lo mas seguro que se tiene, no hay ex. Ellos estan alli y por muchos años que duren sin verse, por mucho tiempo que tarden en escribirse o en hablarse, ellos estan alli. Ellos esta alli, ellos estan seguos.
Y es mas, les voy a decir otra cosa, de todos los amores, q es tender lazos, de todos los puentes, el amor mas devil q existe es el de pareja. En una pareja no hay nada. Por eso hay q darlo todo, para quedarse con algo.

Tener una pareja es como cuidar una flor. Si una flor no se riega, se muere, y si se riega mucho, tambien. Hay q ser un artista para cuidar una flor. Yo ya se cuidar flores ^^ .. Por eso, el amor de padre, de madre y de hijo es como tener un -cuji coreano-, nadie los riega, pero estan ahi. Eso q llamamos amor eterno se da en papa, en mama, en un hijo, y en los amigos, q tambien puede ser un amor eterno. Pero en una pareja es un amor diario, tiene q cuidarse todos los dias. Pero vete de tu pareja diez años a ver q encuentras. Eso es lo q dice que el amor de pareja es amor de todos los dias. Yo puedo hablar con mi mama cada semana, una vez a la semana, pero a mi pareja la estuviera llamando a cada momento. Y no es q sea bueno o malo, es q el amor es así. No se quiere a nadie mas por no querer al otro. Por ejemplo, yo comparo el amor de aquellas parejas q por alguna circunstancia del destino tienen un hijo discapacitado. No es q no quieran a los otros, pero ellos estan seguros. De aquel tienen q estar mas pendientes, porq se puede caer, porque a lo mejor no come solo. En cambio, los otros estan y los quieren igual, y saben q estan ahi.
Si tengo una pareja, ese es el amor discapacitado. De ese tengo q estar mas pendiente porque necesita mas.

Quienes tengamos esa hermosa Flor, ya saben lo q tenemos q hacer, regarla todos los dias para q siempre este fresca y radiante y se mantenga ahi hasta que Dios decida llevarsela de este mundo, y los q no, no dejen de tener Fe de q Dios les regalara nuevamente una flor para su Jardin. ^^

At.

Dulce Locura♥

And I was gone.

I chose to walk alone.
Though others wondered why.

Refused to look before me,

Kept eyes cast upwards,Towards the sky.

I didn't have companions.

No need for earthly things.

Only wanted freedom,

From what I felt were puppet strings.

I longed to be a bird.

That I might fly away.

I pitied every blade of grass

For planted they would stay.

I longed to be a flame.

That brightly danced alone.

Felt jealous of the steam

That made the air its only home.

Some say I wished too hard.

Some say I wished too long.

But they awoke one autumn day

To find that I was gone.

The trees, they say, stood witness.

The sky refused to tell.

But someone who had seen it

Said the story played out well.

I spread my arms out wide.

Breathed in the break of dawn.

I just let go of all I held...

And I was gone.

At. Dulce Locura♥

Loving you... Loving you... My love!!

I'll give you countless amounts of outright acceptance if you want it.
I will give you encouragement to choose the path that you want if you need it.

You can speak of anger and doubts your fears and freak outs and I'll hold it.

You can share your so-called shame filled accounts of times in your life and I won't judge it.

You can ask for space for yourself and only yourself and I'll grant it.

You can ask for freedom as well or time to travel and you'll have it.

You can ask to live by yourself or love someone else and I'll support it.

You can ask for anything you want anything at all and I'll understand it.

I bet you're wondering when the next payback shoe will eventually drop..
I bet you're wondering when my conditional police will force you to cough up..

I bet wonder how far you have now danced you way back into debt..

This is the only kind of love as I understand it that there really is.

You can express your deepest of truths even if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear it.

You can fall into the abyss on your way to your bliss I'll empathize with.

You can say that you have to skip town to chase your passion I'll hear it.

You can even hit rock bottom have a mid-life crisis and I'll hold it.

And there are no strings attached...

You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give. You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have.

I give you thanks for receiving it's my privilege... And you owe me nothing in return.

At.

Dulce Locura♥